Can you be a steward of your own curiosity?

New Moon in Gemini horoscopes for falling back in love with the process

I went on a neighborhood walk during golden hour last night with the unspoken intention to allow myself to get distracted. I walked four miles with no destination in mind, stopping to gawk at every refraction of sunlight, every desert bloom. Even the Barney-purple .99 Cent Store sign was beautiful in 7:05pm summer light.

As picturesque as that sounds, the humming urge to pull out my phone is a plague that follows me everywhere. The perfectly tailored ads feeding me solutions to questions I googled yesterday haunt every third post on social media, my headphones chime with each notification (I need to figure out how to turn that off), men flag me down on the street to leer or gesture. I am desensitized for the sake of survival, but here’s the wound: a new idea, like a fresh bloom, cannot thrive when we are shut off or distracted. That means it is radically important to reclaim our attention spans from a world designed to hijack and monetize every second of our lives.

It’s time to break out of the dopamine notification, boredom epidemic, glazed eye, self-censoring, information fatigue stasis we’ve been purposefully trapped in.

I found a wild blackberry vine bursting with must-eat-today-or-they’ll-go-bad fruit, tucked away under a sidewalk overhang and was reminded of what blackberries are supposed to taste like, ripe and bursting on the vine.

I can’t remember the last time I tasted a fruit so alive.

Then I think of all of the ideas I have picked too early, for later consumption.

Of how my best work was safeguarded until fully sweet, free of urgency or expectation, and yet perfectly on time.

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Geminis have cracked a very specific ingredient in the recipe of a fulfilling life, and that is to separate curiosity from expectation.

How many times have you started writing a Substack, only to get self-conscious about who will read it, what they’ll think, if it’s too vulnerable… now collecting months of dust in your draft folder? How many times have I started the demo of a new song and then felt it was cringe, too personal, not marketable enough to release? How many conversations have been stuck in your throat right before you told someone how you felt, or asked for what you needed?

Stop future-pacing for just a moment and consider what questions feel most alive in your body right now. The stories itching to be told, to be tracked down, word for word, until the truth is known to yourself.

We are expected to be outcome-driven, for every idea to be a home run, fully parsed out, marketable. This is creative constipation.

An idea will not feel safe to land, if it is bombarded with expectations upon arrival. You are the earth-side steward of wherever your inspiration comes from.

The medicine of Gemini is equally to create space for ideas, and to focus the mind by reclaiming your attention span so that you are ready and available when the idea does arrive.

Being the caretaker of your own curiosity requires courage. How fitting that Saturn just moved into Aries, prompting each of us to learn what it will take to be our own champions.

Journal or tarot prompts to help dig a little deeper:

• How do you feel inspired to use your voice at this moment in time?
• Is there an interest or idea that is forming or re-emerging?
• Where do you need to give yourself permission to change your mind or take a new approach?

The house of 6° Gemini is where I invite you to sit down and have an honest to goodness cup of coffee with this part of yourself.

Strike up a conversation with your higher, younger, older self — a council of wise ones — about the flow of ideas here. The stories you tell and repeat, the narratives that feel good, the ones you’d like to change. Open up the channel of communication!

1st house: what does it feel like to have an identity that is always changing? And who would I like to be next?

2nd house: what if instead of condemning boredom, I took it as a cue to seek wealth of life elsewhere?

3rd house: in what ways have I been censoring my own voice that ultimately compromises my authenticity and makes me feel self-conscious?

4th house: where am I tired of explaining myself? What feels like home with minimal effort?

5th house: as the steward of my own creativity, how would my ideas rank my execution and promotion of them, on a scale from 1-10?

6th house: what would feel enriching to change about my daily routines, habits, and surroundings?

7th house: are all of my cards on the table in the relationships that matter most to me? Why or why not?

8th house: when is the last time I cried? What will make me feel safe to feel it fully?

9th house: where have I become so focused on the big picture that I have forgotten to enjoy the process?

10th house: can I give myself permission to change my mind about anything in my career that I’ve lost interest in?

11th house: what friendships make my voice feel seen and honored? Is there anything I’ve been meaning to say to those who don’t?

12th house: how can I set more time aside to be spiritually present in my own life?

To the moon and back (pun always intended),
Ocean